yaknow, im not just a door mat, i dont expect people to step on me & keep going it happens & i cant change that. I just give everyone the benefit of the doubt constantly & truly believe i wont get hurt, even though my guard is sky high & it rare i let it down the slightest bit. Eventually, everyone gets hurt im just wondering why it seems to always be me, & why during Spring Break i sit home on the computer? i would love to go out & have a life, im not a bad person i just wish people would realize who i really am, instead of judging me.

The TRUTH IS, i care about everything way to much & i over think & over react i know i do, but at the end of the day im a friend till the end. Im EXTREMELY emotional, && it sucks because no one cares when your crying about how your heart hurts from loosing your uncle to a cereal killerr called CANCER, everyone you know has lost or has had or has cancer no matter what your friends sisters brother-in law, your friends mothers brother, you, your mom or dad, sister EVERYONE HAS KNOWN SOMEONE WHO HAS EITHER WON THE BATTLE OR LOST THE BATTLE FROM CANCER. it doesnt matter how i feel to anyone or what ive been through.

IM JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER 17 YEAR OLD, I WANNA GO OUT & ENJOY MY LIFE BUT IM STUCK DEALING WITH FAMILY ISSUES.. I will never get over my uncle passing or my mom saying the things she says to me or my dad never being around, but ill get through it It wont get easier it will just get different.

No one knows my pain my suffer my hard work i put in to my life everyday my plans for my future what i go through or what ive been through im not asking anyone to help im just wondering why i always help but im never helped?

i go to church every Sunday, i study i get decent grades i try my hardest to make myself & everyone else proud but all it comes down too is when i lay down in my bed i feel empty in everyway possible, when the room is dark i turn on the light, i feel secure with it on.

if everyone knew the real me i wonder if they would care to stay with me & walk the path of life till the end of the line, but i doubt ill ever find a friend whos willing. Everyone ive hung out with has walked out on me one way or another.

ITS OK THOUGH I WILL GET THROUGH THE PAIN BECAUSE IF I DONT NO ONE WILL BE HERE TO HELP ME. -Danielle Nicole Chiarello

ismileforstyles:

bitchums:

I JUST SPENT 2 HOURS OF MY LIFE TRYING TO FIGURE THIS OUT. MOST DIFFICULT THING I’VE EVER DONE. 

it took me 3 hours

I LOVE THESE GAMES.

I DID IT, TOOK ME AGES BUT I DID IT.

(via smoke-the-night-away)